Im Prob jus writing in here for the hell of it cuz nobody prob reading these post anyways so here is another thought:
i sometimes wonder if i had made some different decision in life how much would my life have changed and would it have been for the good or would it have been worse, i look back at several turning points in my life and think if i would have went the other way would i be living a better life or even living or dead. I guess i am happy with my life cuz im alive and its the only life i have right now and the fact that i actually have some good friends and if i made different choices i would have not met some of these friends but would have had better friends that are there for me and my pain that i go through everyday but then if i made different choices i prob would have never been in a car accident or would have lost my son from the begining or even later in life when he died in a car accident him self. I will always think of these things becuase life has been good but depressing at times with the bad things that have happened. I just want to get my life back on track get my business up and going and start a new family. Please help me GOD for i have not been the perfect person in the world but i dont deserve alot that has been delt to me, i just want to do good by you and all that i love; my family, my wife, my friends, and jus move on to a better life for all. Thanks for reading if you did and if you didnt then noone will ever know....